Neulasta Roadblock

After a great day on Sunday, Monday provided a roadblock.  My Mom & I went to Hastings so I could do my regular weekly blood work and we got groceries.  By the time we returned home at about 12:30, I was having terrible lower back pain.  The pain continued to get worse and included spasms as well as numbness and tingling sensations down my legs into my feet.  Not fun!  If I were to rank the most painful experiences in my life it would go:  1. Birth of Gavin 2. Birth of Alexis (I really don't know which child induced the most pain but Gavin's the oldest so we'll blame him:) 3.Yesterday's back pain.  I was in tears and not in my right mind.  After seeing what some pain meds would do for me (nothing) I put a call in to the oncology nurse.  When she called me back she said that the pain was most likely caused by the shot, Neulasta, that I received last Wednesday.  I questioned her; how this could be, I had the shot 6 days ago for goodness sakes?  I have numbness & tingling in my legs that started at the same time as the pain, why is this?  She explained that these are two separate issues.  The pain, no doubt from the shot (a shot meant to help you has the ability to cause this much pain?...I'll get to that in a minute) but the other was from a conditional common for chemo patients called Neuropathy.  So apparently I was having these back spasms and the neuropathy decided to kick me while I was down!  The nurse said to start alternating Tylenol & Ibuprofen and also to alternate heat & ice, call tomorrow if it wasn't under control.  I was so mad when I got off the phone!  Not so much at the poor nurse who had to hear me sniffling back tears on the other side of the phone, but at this shot that can hurt a person so badly.  The purpose of it is to stimulate or boost the growth of white blood cells that are often attacked during chemo.  The brochure does indicate that the most common side effect is aching in the bones & muscles.  It goes on to say that it can usually (gotta love the insertion of certain words) be relieved with a nonasprin pain reliever.  So what do I do at this point but Google this crazy idea!  There is a really good site courtesy of the American Cancer Society where a patient can put out a question and then others can answer based on their own experiences.  These were some of the responses that I read last night regarding other experiences with the Neulasta shot: "unspeakable bone pain", "just about died from the pain", "such severe pain I could not even move".  Reading these responses actually helped me to realize that I am not a wimp and that what I was experiencing was very real!  Thank you to my parents who got Lexi to dance & back for me last night.  Thank you to the 5 friends who I e-mailed yesterday afternoon asking for prayer.  They did pray and also prayed that I would be able to sleep last night.  Guess what?!  I slept from 11pm-5:10am without waking once!!!  If you really knew how much pain I was in at bedtime you would understand how excited I was when I woke up this morning!  The pain is still there today but without those awful spasms.  It actually feels better to stand than to sit or lay.  I have no idea how long this might last or if the spasms will come back but God's got this and I know that he will help me through whatever else might come my way!

I am praying for and missing my preschoolers & co-workers today as it is Grandparent's Day at Peas in a Pod.  I have not shared this with all of you yet but my oncologist "strongly suggested" that I not work during chemo due to the nature of my job and the fact that we are going into flu season.  I am disappointed and missing my "little turkeys".   But I understand and want to put my health first right now.

On another note, I ordered my wig yesterday!  I had tried on some wigs in a store and found my favorite.  My wonderful sister searched to find a company that sells wigs at a great price so I ordered the same one from them.  I have not shared this on my blog yet, but a generous woman whom I do not even know personally (she works with my sister) wrote a check a few weeks ago that just about completely covered the cost of my wig.  It was her birthday gift to herself.  I cannot think or speak about this act of kindness without tearing up.  This woman has blessed me more than she knows and I look forward to the day that I can gift someone else in a similar way.  I am so thankful for these "golden nuggets" that the Lord has provided me during this time.  How can I be down and out when such amazing things are happening in and through this diagnosis?!